Please let me go home

As a kid my parents moved us around a lot, never giving us chance to put down roots or feel at home anywhere. As a teen they split, left and I was alone in the world with a younger sister to take care of for a while ..until she was taken back by our mother and so was the house that we had been living in, which was promptly given back to the council. I was homeless.

I would stay with my boyfriend and his mum or with friends or family or in squats, wherever was available from day to day really. I was lucky enough to never sleep outside on the street but i still never had a place to call home. With no fixed address nobody would employ me in order for me to afford a fixed address so i stayed in the vicious circle i was in for a few years until i fell pregnant.

Now the council offered me a flat; a horrible place in a tower block as far from everything I knew as it could have been without leaving the city. I was upset at the thought of raising my baby in such an awful place but at least once the door closed it was home. Next that home was pulled down and the council tried to house me in worse places where drug addicts would hang around outside your door and needles littered the streets …there was no way i was allowing any child of mine to live in a place like that!

I started renting privately. I was so lucky to find somewhere as i wasnt working due to disability a private landlord that would take us wasnt easy to find! The first lasted 7months before he took back his house, that was the problem with private rentals, some landlords were unreliable and the bottom line was, and is, that a landlord can decide he wants you out of his property at any time and as long as you are given (short!) notice you have no choice but to leave

..and then what? ..be homeless AGAIN? ..and with my children?!

I cant allow that to happen to my babies. Im now back near the areas I grew up, I have made our house nice and comfortable and I am a law student. Weve lived here for almost 2years now but it still isnt our own and could still be taken away at any moment.

I will keep working hard and overcoming all obstacles until i have a place of our own and which is secure and which nobody can take away from us so that my beautiful sons dont have to live the same tortured life that i have ..desperately wanting to go home but not knowing where that is.

Posted by: cupidcasulty