I Am Waiting To See You

Here I am waiting, just waiting, anticipating a chance to see you so I can embrace you, hug you. I sit here not for hours but days and months that you would show up one day and I would tell you all the loving things that I have in my heart. I need you now as ever before. ....

I would even risk sitting through a rain shower and get pneumonia but that will be worth waiting for just a glance. Call me crazy but I just wanna get to know you once more.

If I didn’t say it before, I will say it now. You are my dream, my potential livelihood. This time and from now, I will behave properly. I promise to let you go when the time comes. We will part on good terms so when I need you again, I will be able to count on you in my dire hour of need.

I am indebted to you but hope not for long. I was naive before and didn’t know how to handle you. The cruel world took you away from me. Without you, I became homeless. I have learned my lesson. Without you, I have no livelihood. I have lost my self-esteem since you been gone. I know I didn’t treat you well. I admit I abused you and I am sorry.

At times you keep me at a very confused state. I used to think I was on top of you and because of you, I was on top of everything. I didn’t worry about “nothing.” You made me lose all the worries in the world. I don’t know if this is a method to your madness – madness of keeping me on my toes.

You keep me interested in you. You were so easy before. I didn’t have to ask you again and repeatedly. Now when I need you the most, you keep me in suspense. I admit my tastes have changed but I still have the same taste for you.
You used to keep me in comfort

We were together for the longest through sickness and health, for better or worse. I can’t stand it any more. Why should we live at such a great distance from each other.

I admit I have made mistakes. But that was past. I have put that behind me. The past mistakes should not hinder my chances of getting closer to you. I did the time for my previous crimes. I am clean now. I am not totally innocent but it was not entirely my fault.

We were both a part of the closeness we enjoyed so much. You are just being more cautious and I must say that’s cool. But at the same time you are no fool and your discernment can call who is right and who is wrong. So I am begging you as I will admit to my mistakes again and again.
Wow, this is the longest I’ve ever waited

This is the longest I have ever anticipated, the longest I have ever held tight to such a dream. Any other time I would say f*** it and do something else when I am not thinking about you but yet I am still here…still waiting…just waiting…anticipating a chance to see you – one more time.
O, Credit, thou credit! Where are thou? Now that I need you more than ever.

Let me have you. I wanna use you. But this time, I wanna use you properly and with great care. I promise. I know in my heart, someday you will return to me. You won’t be able to live without me for too long anyway.

Posted by: Anonymous Female